I Miss You

Ever since I moved out,so much things had happened and yet I don't know who to turn to.

Where are you?I miss you so much.I have so much to tell you.There's no one for me to turn to after you left us.I know I have to grow up without you,I know I have to learn to go thru' life without you.

I'm trying to please everyone in the house,I can't find a balance in there.If you're around, you'll know what to do and say.
Pa and Ma are very upset over Brother's and Sis-in-law's attitude and Sis is over tiring herself. I can't do anything, I can't confront Kor and made him understand what he had done that upset Pa and Ma,neither can I help Sis much.So all I can do is to make them happy and laugh.I really hope this can work forever but I know this is only a short term.

Jason has not broken his promise.He still loves me and cares for me just as what you had said to him.He's been very nice to me but he's under some financial stress.I would like to help him out.But I, myself,under slight pressure in looking for jobs too.I don't know what and where I should head to.
Should I go for jobs that I have real passion for it or should I go for jobs that I have gotten a degree with?
Daddy spoke to me few weeks ago,I think my problem lies in not able to be more open.That's why I can't make up my mind what I want to be and what I really want in life.I tried to talk to Jason,I know and understand each and every words he explained to me, but I just can't get myself to agree with him.What should I do?
If you're here.....


I really miss those days I had with you.
You were always there for us whenever we needed you.You were our peace-maker.
You taught and guide me to understand Ma better.You made me see the problems my family had and made me realized what I could do then.
You also brought me laughters and good memories.Most importantly, you gave me a younger brother to make me love him and you showered me with your love till the day you gone.I'll never forget you.One day,I'll learn not to cry in front of you the moment I see you. I want you to see me happy and this day will come.

Another one!!~@##$$%^^

What's going on?
One after another!!This time was Mom.
I wasn't that enthusiastic to go home on Sundays due to some reasons. Anyway, still have to go back.

As we(Jason and I) were about to sit down for meals, I suddenly remembered about Wednesday's food tasting session for my wedding dinner, so I just simply shouted out to Dad to remind him too.
That's when Mom tapped on my shoulder hard to make me not to mention anything about food tasting as we didn't ask Kor and Sis-in-law along.
What's the big deal man??!!
Food tasting must call them meh??They not VIP what!!~~
Why Everything also cannot say,It's my wedding lah!!~~
ARGHHH!!~~@#$#%#$%#%

Just Hate it so much when Mom and Dad do such things to me!!~~
Why must I alwiz be the one to be considerate towards my Sis and bro and not the other way round???

Why can't I be myself when they're around??
Why can't they let me say and do whatever I want??
Hate It Hate It!!!

In order not to make things look ugly, we(Jason and I) sat in the kitchen to have our lunch, a quick one and we set out to Ikea straight after that.
Well, Mom called me when I was in Ikea. In a nice and soft tone asking where were we?
I dunno what she wants....is it she knows she's in the wrong and called to check if I'm still angry with her?

I'm so angry yet upset...sighz! REally dunno how...kinda heart pain whenever I think of what my mom and dad had done for them.I know they care and worry for me too, but..whatever!I dunno how to write those feelings out anymore.Now I only know Sundays are not the days I'm looking forward to.

PISSED!!~~@#$$%%^^&^^%%$$##

Hey Come on lah!!~~ I'm not so desperately wanted Pa to send me home,but at least ask to show some concern lah!!~
Wherever Sis is, he sure be there for her to send her home,regardless Pa driving taxi or not.
Yesterday was the worst nite i had when I received Pa's call.
He reminded me to call sis to inform her that he'll be fetching her home after her insurance lesson.Before he went out,he had already told me to call sis.Well, I didn't do so due to jealousy.Yah Really Jealous loh!!~~

Why can't he call sis himself?He's fetching her not me,call me for what???
What a precious daughter...Lesson at Chinatown,Pa also can drive all the way down to fetch her.
Wednesday isn't a day to ask dad to drive us anywhere or borrow car from him.
Whatever!!~I'm damn angry and upset.

When the house need packing, I'm alwiz the one asked to go back do, but when there's good stuff, I'm not into their picture!!

When I needed someone to help me shift my stuff over to new house, non of them offered!!
When Kor and Sis shift to new place, we(Jason and I) have and must help...what kind of theory is that man????!!!

So Damn Pissed OFf!!@#$%^&*&^%$$##

張學友-但願人長久

Finally found this song!!~~
I've been telling my frens about this song.
It's another version of what Faye sang.

最長的電影

I came across this MV while Jason was studying...I think this song quite nice, and the MV is quite interesting too.
You'll be able to find the full version of the MV here.
Enjoy

KTV @ Kbox-KLunch

Being jobless, the 3 of us basically rotting at home.
Well, there are times we still meet up for supper in order to "dust" off the "webs".
As for the 2 guys, think they meet up more often for tennis, Malaysia makan and Jogging..

This late morning, we met up for KTV @ AMK big Mac Centre Kbox.
We really sang our hearts out but poor Brandon, he didn't manage to sing much as the microphones were occupied by either Mel or me....hahahaa!!!~~
Anyway, we had a great time.

So guyz...will there be another KTV session?


p/s: Awaiting for Mel to send me the pics